Suddenly feel like shit for some reason :(
More than anything I want you to be here with me right now, you’d make things okay.
Despite having a Geography exam this morning (that I felt went okay, fingers crossed) I’m in such a good mood. After the exam my friend Becky and I went to Inverness for some retail therapy, in which I got stuff for RockNess, which I’m so pleased with! :D Socks, a ring, a top/dress, sunglasses and a hoody. All this makes me so EXCIIIIITED! Holy fudgecake I am buuuuzzing. Roll on June 8th!
Actually so happy right now. Life is going to plan.
After two or so weeks of having bare nails, having them painted actually feels so good.
I’m really bored of how I look and I’d really appreciate it if any of you gave me any suggestions of hair ideas or whatever that you think I’d suit. Please? :)
I would do anything to go back to January and change everything.
Beginning to think I may as well become a nun or some shit like that. I mean, really.
I really fucking hate everything right now. Don’t get me wrong, I appreciate everything that I have - a roof over my head, free education etc, but I just feel so empty, so apart from everything and everyone. I don’t feel like talking to anyone or leaving my house but I just get worse when I don’t. I don’t know what brought this on and I don’t know how to stop it. I’m so lost and sad.. I want to be happy again but so little has gone right for me in the past year and a half, I’m failing to see what the point in even attempting to be positive about things is. Because I’m always fucking disappointed. Always. Am I not allowed to be happy? I’ve made the best of the situation for so fucking long. I can’t stand it anymore, there’s nothing to be positive about really.
Missing someone who’s completely happy without you fucking sucks.
